This is the second week I've joined in the linky Ordinary moments.
I've been in two minds about writing this for my ordinary moments this week. I'm not looking for sympathy and don't want it to come across that way at all. I decided to write about this as its affected how I've been this week and what we have got up to and because everyone feels low from time to time.
This week started with me feeling dreadful thanks to coming down with a cold. Most of the time if a cold I get up and get on with it. This week has felt very tough though because I had started to feel low before hand.
Living with depression and anxiety is hard work. This week I've not wanted to get out of bed but have forced myself to do so. I have been through a mixture of emotions from feeling nothing, sad, lonely and then angry at myself. I've just wanted to jump out of my body and shake myself and say snap out of it. If you have suffered from depression you will know that it is never that easy. I've felt physically and emotionally drained all week all I've wanted to do is be by myself a lot but also hated it all at the same time. I've hardly been out this week except to the park with Blake which has made me feel incredibly guilty and like a shit mum.
I've also felt like a rubbish wife as I've not been doing the usual things around the home as much as I usually do.
I'm slowly starting to feel myself again now and am starting to realise that I need to have a self care plan in place and make sure I look after me and my mental health a lot more than I have been. I need to make sure that I take time out every day. I also need to work out ways to beat the blues that work for me and ways to help with my anxiety by making positive distractions and changes to my life.