Wednesday, 13 July 2016

Stress, Anxiety and Me


It's happening again the surge overwhelming panic, heart palpitations, feeling as if I can't breath. It something that happens to me quite frequently recently. Something I've never really talked about on here but something I need to get off my chest. 

I've always been a worrier for as long as I can remember. When I was at school I worried about people liking me, about my lessons, about my exams, pretty much everything to be honest. But since having Blake this has become something that is happening a bit more regularly. 

I've had a lot of stress and anxiety recently and things that may seem nothing to others have been bothering me no end. I've also had  labyrinthitis a few weeks ago which hasn't helped things. Sometimes the silly things that are bothering me are things such as not having enough hours in a day to do all housework that is needing to be done, write blog posts, go to groups with Blake as well as playing with him throughout the day. Other times it's bigger things such as the fact we are out growing our flat but rental prices are ridiculously high to be able to afford to move to the bigger place we need.

I recently had an appointment with the health visitor and found out that Blake is a bit behind in his development in a few areas so is being referred to see someone about that. This has made me feel useless and that maybe I should be trying harder with my son and that I am letting him down as a mum. In a way I think the stress and anxiety of that may be what brought on me having labyrinthitis the other week so I've been trying to take it more easy recently. I also spoke to my GP about how I've been feeling and have now also been prescribed something to help me when I feel like i'm going to have a panic attack or just need it to help with my stress levels and anxiety. 

As you can see the bigger problems should be bothering me more than fitting what I need to into my day.

Last year I did a little course (thanks to my local children's centre) on mental health. The course was called healthy minds and was a great way to help me with a wide range of mental health issues so I think its time to get the pack out and to focus on getting myself sorted. 

I'm cutting down my blog posts for awhile and sticking to about 2/3 posts a week rather than trying to fit 5 or more in each week. I feel that by doing this it means I still am able to blog which I love to do but by cutting down my work load I can start feel more relaxed and hopefully start to feel much more like myself once again.

32 comments:

  1. What you said in the final paragraph is bob on! I hope your new schedule has you feeling more centred and settled.

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  2. I hope cutting down your schedule makes you feel more relaxed and less stressed.

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  3. I think focusing on yourself and finding a schedule that works for you is important. I find there's different levels of anxiety as I suffer too, have done for nearly 8 years now. Hopefully soon you'll feel more at ease with things x

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  4. I'm the same. I've always been a worrier too and admittedly have a few anxiety attacks every now and then. Over time I've learned how to do deal with it, like you did. x

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  5. Aw, I hope you feel better soon. And don't worry about your little one, they all progress at different rates.

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  6. Sometimes blogging is part of the problem so cutting down and taking time out will hopefully help. Take care x

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  7. I have had labrynthitis before so can sympathise. I think taking a step back will help you, it does me, sometimes I just need to step back and switch off from everything x

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  8. I related to this so much - I've been having a bad patch with depression and anxiety lately, so I've been trying to get back some control over it all. I hope the new schedule does the trick and makes you feel calmer. x

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  9. So very important to look after yourself first. The blog isn't going to help you during an attack. I've suffered from these too. Mine were brought on by palpitations too, although mine were as a result of PAC's PVC's and spontaneous sinus tachy. Nothing I can do about it, nothing that will hurt me.

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  10. Good choice. I know I make things harder on myself than I need to, and feel like I need permission to scale everything back a bit.

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  11. Hope you are feeling better soon. Don't blame yourself for Blakes development, every child develops at their own rate. We shouldn't be made to feel that they should be doing something they are not ready for yet x

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  12. Good idea to cut down! Only blog when you want too.

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  13. I can completely empathise with you and this post. Take some time to put yourself first and relax. I often feel so bogged down and pressured with work and everything going on outside of work that i end up neglecting me xxx

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  14. It's good that you're so aware of your own stress levels. I think you're making a good decision under the circumstances.

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  15. I remember this happening to me a few years ago :( Cutting back on blogging and relaxing yourself more sounds like a good idea...

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  16. We all need to remember to look after ourselves. I am a bit of a worrier too so I can relate.

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  17. Sorry to hear you are struggling. I wouldn't worry too much about Blake being a little behind, they all develop at their own rates. Sebby didn't talk until he was 2.5 and they wanted me to take him to speech and language classes but he has caught up now

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  18. youve got to do what youve got to do. looking after yourself is the number one priority

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  19. I hope a change in schedule does help. I suffer from this too, so I know how hard it can be.

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  20. Sending you lots of hugs - I can really relate xx

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  21. Aww, I am Sending you lots of hugs lovely xx

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  22. I can completely relate to this post. I too feel a lot of stress and anxiety, but yesterday I handed in my notice at work so hopefully some of the stress will ease soon! Sending you loads of strength. You're doing the best you can and that's all that matters.

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  23. I'm sorry to hear you're going through a stressful time. I hate anxiety attacks, they are truly awful.

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  24. I suffered really badly with anxiety and stress after having my third child, I can totally relate to this. I worry about silly things and big things all at once, my daughter has had speech delays and I blamed myself, don't beat yourself up as it is not your fault at all. xx

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  25. I think you should talk to a therapist, it's the only way you can get your normal life back. Also, I don't thing you should blame about things you aren't responsible, dear. I'll leave you a link to a book that I read several times and I think it would be very beneficial to you too. Please, have a look: http://www.wha2wear.com/life-changing-book/ xxx P.S. you may have already seen that I shared it on fb too

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  26. Sorry to hear you not feeling yourself, sounds like a good action plan x Really impressed at 5 posts with a wee one - as much as I am with 3 x Take care xx

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  27. Stress and anxiety can cause us to lose track of what's what but glad you're taking good steps for yourself to have more time for important things in your life.

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  28. Being more relaxed is also one of my goals. I'm trying to take on less work so I can spend more time with my family and focus on what really matters! I'm sure you will be fine! :)
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  29. I believe you will manage those things. Just keep blogging and sharing your thoughts. It can help to relieve some stress.

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  30. I find lists help me, I know some find that concept overwhelming, but I find it calms me and gives me a view of what to do and It helps me relax and feel more in control x

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  31. Good luck in everything you do! I wish I could have blog posts done everyday but I do 3 times a week because it's nice to have a day off and relax. That's the best thing you can do, make sure you relax! :D

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  32. Oh no hun, sorry to hear about your stress and anxiety. I can relate and would be the first time to admit that I am a worrier. Blogging does help though.

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